When I Tell You You Will Know

Now ~ it does appear that certain twisted aspects of this baffling 

mess are already known to you. 

We all hope that you will find the calm patience you will  require unless you're ready to lose  what  sanity you imagine to be yours at this moment.Just know that it becomes more confusing before it  can even be explained properly.

We invite you to get in touch in the usual way. Let us know if you will to proceed.

We'll explain later~ when next we seem to be in the Mood

bfinding

SeedSallTzu [wonow]...for your gracious consideration

OOnce again, I thank ye, sincerely. Thought you had already left.
I suck in slight breath here.... may it be granted that I'll not overwhelm her  right out of existence this time. Too m uch to ask? Probably, as it asks for the unprecedented: for that which, throughout the known History of Thee 'n' Mee....grand efforts , sweaty efforts, in truth, have been made on m y part-- I do
know this much as truth! I am the one drenched- too many times to mention- in any and all variations of 'weather'..... BEADS
humbling beads of sweaty sweat, preceding the first inchoate syllable sound towards a first word to Her, that is : to you.
Begin. Good Morning and Good Wishes.
How are you today?
{do not answer: that's a space saver for an in-breath. It is a formality used by non-autistic people in their 'innocence'}


OF COURSE THEY'RE NOT INNOCENT! au contraire,  dey no gottem uhn clue.... nor do I, in truth, comprehend their origins, their intentions, their fuel choices or the source of those fuels. Be that as it may, or > rather, as the philosopher of the current era always states so clearly, so admirably: Be that as It is, for that is what that is.


Entre nous~ starting right now, it is all affection, mutual encouragement and mutual support across the spectrum ~ this is does and will always be at Foundation= food, most delicious, most rare of preparation ^ you know, the intention is prashad & the composition is aesthetic^ and we know - oh, yes- we know, neither the loving attention of prashad, nor the personal proclivity of aesthetics, in any way complicates or precludes: delicious and exquisite in nutrition.
Deaqr One, it is clear, entre nous, that those point re: food are almost too obvious to state. We've been studying, searching, practicing, experimenting now for a good long while...... let me just say, that on this new day[?2011-12-07] several new Ones shall be joining us [and, more on that a bit later--they're fine/lovely/good].


To start with food and extend  maximum  explanation here, will way save time later. And, any consideration is a mere abstraction until after the food.
And, it is truth: all else can wait, and can wait  as long as needed.. Sequence of action must be honored. This has always and forever been our [] practice. At our present time 20111207- I intuit for myself, from the excitement/even palpitations I experience-- it is CRUCIAL for me to>1. in-breat5h, 2. slow down 3. look up 4. recalibrate for precise here/now... we've been at this for so long, and- in fact, in many ways have accomplished/excelled-- yeah we got somewhere= we achieved something
but here's the deal> these palpitations, this slight over =the-top excitement in my viscera is loud. I cannot ignore that deafening  volumn.
Grabbed hold of myself, back to basics, Babe.
Even more so, don't you think, as we embark together on something very new and of extreme importance?ater. First: in huge bowl-cup [Thee 'n' Mee]: espresso very hot, and fling some whole cream on top, please. The small [ NOT the tiny] linen square napkins- freesia embroider on one corner: those. you know? yeah. good. you've guessed... yes, the butter flake apricot pastry goes with THAT napkin, you once said


Trusting you're with me before I even continue... precision, 'perfection'- as we've seen- are indeed possible....in the little, tiny things. And, I speak for my own stuttering self here-- for mee, in my world as yet, if ever- only there in the sweet and the circumspect and the tiny.Any slightest thing beyond that, my motto: 'doing my best... please bear with me, forgive me in advance


for,in fact I was moted- demoted by my own attitude- my own feeling-thoughts as inevitably revealed to my nearby associates. i could no more hide my thoughts and feelings and responses to this that & the other than could a loligo- most beautiful of all salt sea creatures- but, I exaggerate, as usual-. Whensoever I preface any declarative with the hint of superlatives, be forewarned that hyperbole is on its buffoonish way. Via 'logic' in the finite world, of course superlativesdo, in fact, exist.


For myself, though I have come to notice over the past 4 or 5 decades that an anomoly is taking place, and way better to make note of a poss differentiation here---- than strauggle another nano longer: the diamond peg fitteth not into the triangular hole.


Migraines abound- not one of them a pleasure, and not one of them in the slightest way 'normal': for that reason and many others, not only 'the normal' themselves [they are as always a self-selected category] but those several inner circles of those who see themselves [and, thus , are seen by others] as semi-normal
and just what a +b might = who knows? Not I.




WHAT SPECIFIC CATEGORYT OF NJORMAL? that much is easy to say. Physiologically/biologically normal-self-selection is the salient point even here----eg: a high functionning blind person or say-- high functionnning though born unable to walk-- may perceive themseves- and may be perceived as normal




the idiosyncracy i attempt todefog... is m y own- always complicated from inside. but far from impossible.     possibility that a slightly idiosyncratic functioning appears to operate within m y own n ervous system.Oh, yeah- we're all diff; we're all indivs and yey we're all 'human'- or so they would have you agree. "They" ? well, we'll have to talk about that later my nervoussystem with its own idiosyncratic constellation